For the ump-teenth time i just read the last thing you posted. And up until this last time i thought you were working a 12 today. But this last time i read it correctly. It's been all day, you have said nothing at all. Are you fucking with me? Is this all some cruel fucking joke? I know i dont deserve the love you have given me. This was never about forgivness, just like it was never about wooing you. I just wanted you to understand why i love you and why i did what i did...But not this...If you're going to hate me than hate me. If you love someone else or cannot love me again then tell me to my face.
I know as a man i need to do things right. And i would. But without you it's not not worth it. And I CANNOT play games. I don't mean to say that it's with or with-out you. I've explained all of this. But don't lead me on...please. Tell me the truth. Don't give me any false hope or reason. I have already said my goodbyes to those that i love and who love me, including you.
I tell you that i am trying. And i mean it. If you really truly have no faith in any of this, just come here when i am. give me the ring, tell me, and walk away. At least then i will know that there was nothing worth fighting for. That giving up isn't so bad. In any case: i will say it again and again and again: my love is yours forever, because forever you are my love. All of this sounds crazy even to me, But it's your crazy.
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I woke up and this is what I read? Your mean words, threts and you thinking this is a game made tears roll down my face.. It was made clear to you that if your shit was together and a nice home for us I would come to you? I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HEAR YOU SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT AGAIN? Why do you threaten me over my ring? It hurts me badly to know that in your hands it gets pawned or given away!? I keep it hidden away and when I take it out it makes me cry I could never pawn it or give it away? Im crying soo hard, why did I let you break my heart again. You so easily take a knife and slit my throat to bleed everyware, your words have destroyed me AGAIN. Shame on me for giving you my tears!? I thought this time you would give me the world? Its been soo long since ive heard your comforting voice. I herd you clearly today, Youve made me bleed Justin. Im dying on the floor, for a love I die over and over for... I told you I fear you, read your last words to me and youl know why..
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