shit stains on my heart

the inescapable fate
of a love - thats turned to hate
everything that it knew
wasn't true
but love still stayed

it was broken and bruised
like the man that i am.
how many times must love die,
until i finally understand

that there is no chance
for a love this real
simply cant exist
in this fucked up world.

the things she says

blind and broken
from a love i'd seen,
the light at the end of her tunnel
wasn't me,
but what could be
never will,
yet she says she loves me
forever still.

Too much

In the heart lives a love
lying to itself
beating voraciously still
long dead
but still...

A rest awoken by a question
that thou has arisen
pain all thine own
I cannot give in.

For whether a game
or a sincere endeavor
too much is enough
that i know much better

So i retreat
from a battle long over
re live it again
yet again i fall over.

still

my mind is racing
while i sit motionless
I try again
but i know its hopeless
so i reminisce
on better days
memories of us
and wish for things
that i cant change
so i fall
further away
i ask of you
for me
to pray

what's been?

My love,
is like this,
words on a page,
because once you read this-
It's gone away,
But whats the truth?
is it gone?
or there to stay?
Let's end the games:
mine's not here to play,
is it safe to say,
those 3 little words,
whether a noun-
or some verbs,

adjectives cant describe,
the proper feelin,
you've got me illin,
you've got my mind
blown 2 the ceilin'
feelin,
like a villain,
but on the down low,
i cant control
the pain u b spillin,
to my soul.

thought u should know,
it's a whole 'nother mess-
but i love u-
 none the less

My jungle of love

Cant see the forest,
through the trees,
too busy climbing these,
trying to get to the top,
denying pleas,
of loved ones hunger,
with a thirst for more,
you ignore the pain
aim for the top,
because you wanted more,
than what little it seemed,

at the time,

but times passed now,

and you're stuck,

with what you left behind,

there's no escape,

so now you're draped in the canopy

Of what you thought was a forest,

But still you cannot see,

what life was worth,

Whilst you've got it bad,

My jungle's twice as worse.

when your heart turns cold

The things we say,
To push away,
What we hold close,
Just too afraid,
too ashamed,
it's too little
too late....

When your heart turns cold
all thats left is hate,
we cant make love,
so the hearts we break,
one last time,
for old times sake,
we embrace our fate,
disgracing what once was,
forever changing us.

When your heart turns cold,
and there's no life left,
escape isn't an option,
and you pray for death,
Wishin the end would come quicker,
So every day is a test,
When your heart turns cold.