Im sitting here, really in love with someone, and it seems like all i want is what megan wanted from me all those years that I couldn't give. I just want her to want me. Physically, emotionally...spiritually? I wish I could just take my mentality from now and give it to me back when we had each other. We wouldve been so happy.
I dont even know what the point is of writing here though. With how things were the last time we talked, ive been scared you did what I havnt had the balls to do yet and just offed yourself. And then if you did, do you and our babies visit me? I hope so. I hope you see me now and realize I get it. I really get it. I just wish I had gotten it when it would have made a difference. Because we were meant to be.
