my cause of death

smiling for the world,
but dying on the inside,
every day i die for you,
you just pass me by,
keep on walking,
i'll keep dying,
slowly
theses words mean nothing,
as much as i do,
so im still dying
with my love for you.

The End

It's a shame how much pain a love can bring,
Kind of strange when the same love,
Didnt mean a thing,

And that thing you held so close to you for so long,
Wasn't there to begin with,
Now you're glad it's gone.

But movin on aint an option,
Because your still stuck,
With the same stupid fuck shit bitch ass cunt,

So the last time you saw me let it be just that,
While you could've had it all,
I'm not ever coming back.

unfinished

I can see straight,
through the lies,
with crooked smiles,
you compromise,
what we have i realize,
is time and time again.

So i pretend,
that this aint killin me,
still u just aint feelin me,
the pain thats been instilled in me,
like a means without an end.

Getting there

I wake up,
the suns shining,
the birds singing in the trees.
crawl up out of bed,
i gotta get me some caffiene,
but first i hit my stash up,
cuz what i really need is green,
it takes me to a higher level,
and shows me the unseen.

So i got my irie going,
throw my headphones on,
c walking out the house,
but i'm already gone,
though i dont know where i'm going,
i'll get there before long,
in the meanwhile,
It's just the same old song.

Time versus Heartache

I have to wonder,
With this love we'd shared,
Is it dead?
Or were we unprepared?

Because years have passed,
Yet still you say,
We could be again,
Maybe someday.

It hurts me more,
Than you could know,
For your sincerest lies,
Offer some hope.

To me at least,
You meant the most,
But now my love,
Is like a ghost.

A haunting feeling,
That possesses me,
Since all that's left,
Are memories,

So forget me not,
Like you do so well,
Remind me as to why,
For you I fell.

The crying man

I see you in my dreams,
Missing everything,
Between me and you,
What wasn't what it seems.

Tears no longer,
But my subconscious screams,
For you I lived,
While I died to thee.

I know this still,
Yet love won't go,
Not like you did,
Not like you know.

Reminition

When the past comes to haunt you,
It's not always a bad thing,
memories of better days,
and the smiles they bring.

while missed opportunities
may foster some regret,
still i'm glad to have had the chance,
good times that we should never forget.

yet theres still time now,
for what hasn't passed,
if the best is yet to come,
i hope it gets here fast.

warmth

at night i lay awake and wait
for the sun to rise
for dawn to break

but it's been so dark
for far too long
and dreams i had
seem too far gone

still i await
the new days breath
with it hope
for what i have left.

what love gets me.

my tortured soul
so it seems in my dreams,
a man lost to the world
woken by his own screams,
but theres no escape,
no morphine for this pain,
no "for better",
just more worse,
and then more of the same.

shit stains on my heart

the inescapable fate
of a love - thats turned to hate
everything that it knew
wasn't true
but love still stayed

it was broken and bruised
like the man that i am.
how many times must love die,
until i finally understand

that there is no chance
for a love this real
simply cant exist
in this fucked up world.

the things she says

blind and broken
from a love i'd seen,
the light at the end of her tunnel
wasn't me,
but what could be
never will,
yet she says she loves me
forever still.